Get right to the heart of matters its the heart that matters more

digital cameras are something that i haven't quite decided if i like or not.

they can be really good because whenever you want to take a picture you can, and you can take a picture without worrying about how it will turn out.

but on the other hand regular cameras take such real pictures. the things you take pictures of are special.

the whole reason i started talking about this was because all i was looking through my pictures and i am not stable enough to do that yet.

She says, "It's only in my head."
She says, "Shhh...I know it's only in my head."

winnnnneeee makes me happy. also so does flying, which i felt like i was doing while i ate in/on/at the cn tower tonight. did you know the cn tower was originally made as some sort of communication tower (duh, CN)? um. i feel as though for the price of building the cn tower they could have gotten the most bad ass walkie talkies/satelight/ telephone lines on the market. and had enough money left over to plate all of the railroads in gold. okay maybe not gold.
the food was good and the wine was red and it was all free.

my mother told me she has a 'complex' when i don't call her.

sprout status: kind of looking like oversized sperm. tasty.

drunkbloging

i just walked home and i just wanted to say how beautiful it is outside. if you live in toronto please go outside right now and walk around and LOOK at how amazing everything is. the snow has this way of making everything just look calm. and if you do have this experience please take the long way home, because even though your fingers get cold its worth it.

its a silly time to learn to swim when you start to drown

this is for sale on ebay and i want it.


i collect* this plate set from the designer Russel Wright and how cute would a matching clock look in a kitchen with a matching awesome dish set.

*I say collect but really I only have three plates so far. but i will once i graduate humber aka money pit. i have this day dream that i can go antique shopping on the weekends with my darling fiance because we are so financially stable we would never dream of working on the weekends and take the time off to bond and have baths by candlelight. its nice to dream.

working alot right now. my sprouts are starting to grow little tails, they are soo cute. i feel like i am watching them grow up, which i guess i am, but i feel maternal about them. is it wrong that i am going to eat them? haha

i make the best soy milk lattes ever. i am addicted to the song My Number by tegan and sara.

i had a bunch of other things i was going to blog about but safari quit unexpectantly and now i can't be bothered to find it all again to link it.

i have to make a logo for one of my school projects and i am going to do mine by hand. i have been working on it for the past couple hours and i forgot how much i love to paint.

tonight Spike and Kaitlen from the original degrassi are DJ-ing at the club we are going to. and there is an 80's theme. HOT.

update: there was not an 80s theme. zing.

erin takes her 400 children with mark oliver to school in a hot air balloon.

my less then awesome MASH results.


L was out grocery shopping when i got home from school. she came home with all the ingredients to make the most delicious pizzas. one had pineapple, tomatoes and cheese and the next had tomatoes, green olives and taco flavored soy protein and cheese. turns out i have quite the skill for stretching pizza dough. haha we didn't have a rolling pin so we used an empty wine bottle. yeah we are high rollers.

its so disgusting outside. i wish the weather didn't effect me as much as it does but i have primal instincts to hibernate when it gets this cold and windy outside. i wish it would snow instead of this freezing blustery death wind.

all of the ceramic things i was looking at this afternoon promted me to talk to L about taking spinning classes and turns out she already wrote down a list of all the places close to the apartment! one place is like 4 blocks from here (little blocks not even city blocks) so that should be really fun. i would love just going to get messy and create something once a week. i hope we get to work with glazes and paints because that part interests me just as much as making the pottery. maybe L will really like spinning and i can glaze all of her pieces.

today at lunch my friend is reading from the newspaper and turns to me and says, "It says here that smoking a joint is _____(i can't remember the actual number) times worse for you then smoking cigarettes"
I looked her in the eye and said, "well that doesn't affect me because I smoke bowls"
she turns away. five seconds later it dawns on her "that doesn't matter..!" i love quick replying people and being so convincing that they actually believe you.
yeah thats right the pot smoker pulled a fast one on you. sucker.

i heart ceramics

ohhh my. this website is my new ceramic heaven. i have a thing with ceramic plates and bowls. Heath Ceramics really knows how photograph and present their products. here are some of my favorite examples.







i would really like to get a set of these. they are so beautiful and would make everything in them so much more enjoyable to drink. imagine smoothies in this cup? heaven.


this wallpaper would be so fun in a kitchen. it reminds me of a diner, i would want one of those colourful milkshake makers or electric mixers. plus i would wear an apron all the time. and i would write inspirational quotes on a chalkboard hanging on the wall, or maybe my shopping list. okay i'll stop now.

from the Graham and Brown website. not too expensive either.

sausages

so todays freak weather has spawned (hahah i used the word spawned) an urge in me to stay at home, drink hot chocolate, bake, wear my slippers, and get caught up with my good old friend, the internet.
unfortunately, i am still at school (but i caved and wore sweat pants) and am counting down the hours until i get to go home and get started doing nothing.
but since i'm currently in limbo about two of my ideas, procrastination has commenced.

heres what i want to bake...


mmmm coffee cake.....

i have been craving meat big time lately (particularly sausages, ew i know) so when i found yves spicy sausages at the store yesterday i HAD to buy some. they were delish. a BBQ would have helped bring out some of the crispyness that i enjoy so much from a good sausage. but i will test them out on the george forman soon, but cooked in a pan they were well worth the 5.99.

here is an interesting article/discussion by Mark Bittman on the impact that meat consumption has on the environment. as much as i hate the thought of animals living pointless lives for our enjoyment i almost feel more disgusted about the impact we have on the earth to fulfill this crazy meat addiction.
when you think of all the electricity, gasoline, carbon pollution and ....well he pretty much sums it up by saying.

"These assembly-line meat factories consume enormous amounts of energy, pollute water supplies, generate significant greenhouse gases and require ever-increasing amounts of corn, soy and other grains, a dependency that has led to the destruction of vast swaths of the world’s tropical rain forests."


he then goes on to talk about the pollution of the water near these meat factories and how a diet full of hormone injected, sterioid meat, THREE times a day is part of the reason why everyone feels like shit on a daily bases. makes sense.

and btw, i am by no means preaching all meat eaters should change their ways, (anyone who knows me knows that i can't get through a hangover without a BLT), but i would like to see everyone be more open to meat alternatives. tofu (1.99) can feed four girls for two dinners. last time i checked a pepper-et cost that. plus i really wish people could see that a meal can be complete without a slab of animal on the plate. (and probably more nutritious too, because when you take out meat, you need a heck of a lot more veggies to fill you up)

okay my rant is over, check out the article and comment if you have a strong opinion about the subject, there is already a heated discussion going on.

i am starting to grow my sprouts tonight, i hope they work!

i hope this pot doesn't give us pneumonia.

i really like blogging. i came to that realization about 30 seconds ago. which is first on the list of
REASONS WHY I LIKE BLOGGING LIST
- you can have thoughts in your head and then write them and just get them out. in real life i am so bad at just blurting out the most random thing and looking like such an idiot because i forget other people aren't in my head and have no idea what i was just thinking about for the last 3 minutes.
- which brings me to my second point, i dont really care what i say on here cause i don't write it for anyone. its just mine, and its for me and i'm allowed to be totally selfish.
- and i can totally be selfish about all the things i like. and don't like. and there is something to be said about reading on the internet how you feel about something. it sort of changes it in my head to be more definitive. more real.

is it weird that i just said that because i read about my life on the internet that it seems more real to me? okay i am too stoned to be blogging. the list is finished now.

moral of the story is i wish i had a journal when i was a kid because it would be so fun to go back now and read about all the stuff you thought was important and laugh at yourself.

girls gone piled

i.hate.retail.so.friken.much.oh.my.god.

suuuuuuuuchhh a long day today at work. i need to quit. it is interfering with my sanity.

i like being a waitress. job number 2 tomorrow. day off? pffff. not i.

limited energy to blog. apologies. last night i made thai coconut milk and peanut stirfry with tofu and it was pretty much the closest i've had to an assisted orgasm in a while. fuck it was good. even the left overs today were good.

L and M and i were talking last night and i have an small flicker of inspiration of a real life job i want. i don't want to jinx it though cause i need to do more research.

last night D came over too and we all collectively decided that we are not like average friends. most people have civilized conversations with their friends and talk about their lives and interests.
we laugh ourselves sick, gyrate, penguin dance, play board games/cards, play dress up and pretty much have the maturity level of a 10 year old. i can't explain it really but anyone that hangs out with us.....wait no one hangs out with us, except us. proves my point anyway.

tomorrow morning we are getting up early to film something for D's newest movie and it involves us four girls being piled on top of each other in the snow. rock paper scissors showdown for levels, wish me luck, i will die if i'm on the bottom.

update: i forgot to say that both my mom and jays mom got in touch with me via facebook about the change of my relationship status. uh. i thought you were the generation that promotes real conversations.

thanks facebook. for telling my family that i don't have a boyfriend anymore so i didn't have to.

I got a hole in me now, ya, i got a scar i can talk about

"Some things in this world, man, they don't make sense
Some things you don't need until they leave you...
They're the things that you miss" -bright lights, matchbox twenty

some days are better then others.

a cute way to use up old fabric. i really like the birch wood embroidery hoops. (as opposed to the dark ones my mom used)

more cute ideas are here

this is an apartment I am thinking of calling. I need to change my living arrangements. they are not working for me.
Things I have learned that I need in an apartment: I need a place that can inspire me through providing comfort and beauty. I can NOT live in a cluttered house. I need roommates that are respectful of this and CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES. I do not have children at this stage in my life for the reason that I want to live without having to take care of others. yet, that is what i am doing almost everyday.

I believe in loving your home and it will embrace you back. a lot of my philosophies of the home come from the book Apartment Therapy by Maxwell Gillingham-Ryan. it is probably the single most inspiring novel, in terms of changing the way I live my life. The novel shows that through updating, fixing and most importantly LISTENING to your home you can create a space that you truly love and not just live with. Making small changes in the way your furnature is arranged, reorganizing a cluttered closet and purging yourself of accumulated clutter can drastically change the feeling of a home. you should be excited to come home and live in your space, as well as should take ownership of it.
to quote directly from the website "A calm, healthy, beautiful home is a necessary foundation for happiness and success in the world."






My favorite Etsy find of the day. :)

sea snakes and sea weed

please excuse the temporary hiatus. it is on account of this...


and also this....




Today we had a presentation from a company called Blueprint. they specialize in helping companies to distinguish themselves from the competition. in other words, figuring out why clients should choose you. which may sound simple (and at first i thought that too, because if you don't know your strengths then what do you know at all?) but it actually a complicated process.

they help you describe yourself in seven words or less to figure out who are you? thus making where are you going? and how will you get there? even remotely tangible.
i am going to implement their thinking models on myself and try to come up with seven words or less that describe what i bring to the table. a useful tool when i am still unclear what table i want to bring myself too.