crate of large sausages....

Just a quick post today. Mostly to let you know that dave cave answered my question of  how do you know when something is a good idea? in writing form and a video too!

I'm going to warn you about going through his site, lots of naked dude pictures, I've asked him to give me a warning but always always always have to fast click away from his blog in public. haha whatever, I've sort of grown to like those posts (didn't at first, I told you that)

I think whats important to remember about ideas is that you will keep having them. Its not like your brain will dry up and you'll never have another good idea in your life. I mean, I think thats what a lot of us fear, but its really unrealistic to actually happen.

Also school puts a whole new dimension on 'ideas'...because they aren't even ideas anymore, they are school projects. Especially when its a group dynamic and people weigh in on your ideas right away and your brainstorming on the spot and for me that is a tough way to be creative.

I also try and save my ideas for later, especially on this blog, partly because I think I fear ^^ (running out of good ideas) and partly because I am lazy. I think, I'll do that post later, when I'm more organized and have more readers and and and.
and then it never happens because in a couple weeks my mood has shifted and its not the post I want to write anyway.

Must get to school.

Here are the search terms people are using to get to my blog.

these titles are pointless and I never know what to write in them.

so many things in my head right now.

Mostly. ..

ha. yeah. just everything.

always.

I bought a tree. its wayyy to big but I love it. Its sort of like a gawky big bird or something..shrugging in the corner. actually its mostly just like a tree but it has that vibe to me.

we put christmas lights on it to make it more awesome.


I ate something tonight that is NOT agreeing with my stomach. I had the worst pains after dinner.



also my brother moved out last Thursday. its funny because I never realized how different it was having a roommate to not having a roommate (peter doesn't count because I can still walk around in my underwear with him and pee with the door open)

how do you know when something is a good idea?

i am asking this question because I actually want to know the answer. or your rational at least.

what goes through you head?
what are the top priorities?
in what kind of environment do you get your best ideas?
do you love them at first or do you have to warm up to them?
what are they doing now?

for me a million things run through my head. I like to write things down. if im brainstorming every single thing I think about get written down. I like to do that because often my ideas come from other ideas. They take shape from each other.
but other times they just appear. they evolve naturally. they were something that was part of your life and in you and then it was an idea.
usually, I just go on with my daily life and its not until one of those ideas keeps nagging me that I really listen to it. it keeps surfacing. I think about it when theres no reason to think about it. I like it but it scares me. It could work, and thats what makes it alive. different. special. awesome.

cool yeah so I'm working on something.

writing down the bones

I've been reading a book my friend dave cave gave me. shaved paved craved.

Its called Writing Down the Bones, freeing the writer within by Natalie Goldberg. Its also about 2 inches by three inches and a little less then an inch thick, so perfect size to always just always be with you when you happen to have a free moment. 

I'm loving it so much. Its changing me. 

I would usually say something here about how I don't really consider myself a writer or that I don't really care to write a book. First of all, thats my inner critic talking and secondly, that is irrelevant. 

You write everyday. you write emails, tweets, to do lists. you have to write a letter of resignation and we should all be writing more postcards. you don't need to be a 'writer' to write. Its a beautiful thing, writing. 

Her book is so full of advice and is one of those experiences that you find what you need to hear in it. 

"Original details are very ordinary, except to the mind that see their extraordinariness. Its not that we need to go to the Hopis to see greatness; we need to view what we already have in a different way. It is very deep for the Hopis to have a snake dance, but it also is one of their festivals that has been performed every other year for their whole lives. Like any other dance, when it was over, they incited friends to their homes for dinner. If we see their lives and festivals as fantastic and our lives as ordinary, we come to writing with a sense of poverty. we must remember that everything is ordinary and extraordinary. It is our minds that are either open or closed."

"Another thing you should watch out for are questions. If you can write a question, you can answer it. When you are writing, if you write a question, that is fine. But immediately go to a deeper level inside yourself and answer it in the next line. ...Don't be afraid to answer the questions. You will find endless resources inside yourself. "

Question -

I see some people already have their tree up for Christmas. I'm a big fan of a real tree because I love the smell so much.

I feel like the Christmas season just rushes right by so I was thinking of putting up my tree next weekend...but maybe its still to early? HELP

your mind is playing tricks on you my dear

okay okay okay

I had an email blogtervention this morning that is slapping me out of not posting for another day.

the sun is coming in my window and reflecting off my glass coffee table and shooting directly into my eyes. on a side note, glass coffee tables are never a good idea. they always get dirty and they show dust and I've had to upgrade to the industrial size of windex and that bitch is heavy to carry home.

I am going to start making my own cleaning product though. window cleaner, lemon all purpose cleaner, bathroom/grout cleaner, dish soap, hand soap, facewash (already doing that one) shampoo. anything else I can make instead of buying weird chemically options?

So I finished my first website last week. (!) Do you want to see it? http://nmdss.sheridanc.on.ca/~ackermae/euclid_print_shop/index.html  here ya go. on the home page mouse over the circles...I'm not sure if this is intuitive enough, I might change them to always show the text..thoughts?

the content was based off a print shop in kensington but we had to change the name and design a new logo. I guess just in case people are googling it ...I wouldn't want my site to be coming up for them haha.

Now I'm working on a site for a hotel and also starting a site for home made cleaning products (its my new mission)

The lovely Carly came and visited this weekend and it was awesome. we went to see of monsters and men friday night and then saturday went shopping all along queen. we found a gold mine of a vintage store called Public Butter. everything was $20! (and I mean good stuff too, like jean jackets and leather jackets,  $20!!) There website is pretty crap, maybe I will contact them when I finish school haha

also came up with this gem - hot lips big hips sassy tits I don't stop for punctuation period
just yell that out a few times, guaranteed to feel better

Heres a cool website - a softer world

Here's Jonny!

Dave! This morning I woke up early. made coffee! logged into the blog!

what to write what to write.

People are getting so worried about this silly storm. Last night I was supposed to have a midterm and it was cancelled because of the wind warning. I couldn't believe they would cancel a midterm just because of some wind!

In my four years at Humber we never even got one snow day. Not even ONE! and its seven weeks in at Sheridan and we postponed a midterm because of leaves blowing around.

So instead I came home and then we went to the theatre to watch The Shining. WHAT a movie. I'd never seen it before and on that huge screen and Jack is going insane and that scene where they are on the stairs really gets me. he is just so mean to Wendy and menacing and just plays that part so well I was scared for her.

P and I decided if we have a little boy we are going to go as Jack, Wendy and Danny for Halloween. He doesn't have a choice. P would just carry an axe around all night and limp and be generally more crazy then normal and I could find a smock dress in a thrift no problem.

oh and if we had two girls they could play this part.

holy low res photo.

just wasted a good amount of time looking at Shining Gifs.

I'm still trying to watch less tv. yesterday I didn't watch anyway...instead I went into school early to study for a midterm that isn't until next week and at night I just read before bed. Its not that I don't like tv...because I do...I really do..its just its never just one show..its one show and then you want to watch another show and show show show turns into staying up way too late and what even happened?

Shows that I love -
Dexter
Mad Men ...although, to be honest...I need some more drama from this show...the last season was pretty uneventful.
Parks and Rec
The Office
Amazing Race
Project Runway
Workaholics (resisted liking this show at first...but it gets me laughing every time)
Nurse Jackie (I think I'm the only person who likes this show, I've never met anyone else who watches it)
SNL (sunday morning tradition because I can never stay awake that late)

Lately I've been sort of half watching the Walking Dead with Peter and its kind of got my interest but the noise those zombies make have me wanting to rip my ears off. its so gross and they are so brutal in killing them. think like, arrow through the eye ball and machete slicing heads off. its too much for me!

In other non tv and movie news I found this cool site you can play around with type and letters with. Its called Type is Art. 

Heres some examples...bonus points if you can guess which one (s?) are mine...

what are we even watching?

Friday night I was in a mood and decided we watch too much television.

Which is true, kind of. Mostly it was the mood though. I want to spend more quality time together and we have sort of slipped into a habit of eating in front of the TV and watching show after show, even though we don't even have cable.

Anyway, once I had put that challenge out there it was fairly easy to hold out on watching anything.

We had a big-ish fight Saturday night. Which makes this look whole thing look worse then it is but looking back on it now I'm realizing that the same things that put me into that mood were the same things we fought discussed like adults about on Saturday night.

All of which are pretty much cleared up now.

But I mostly started this ramble to talk about what not watching tv for 48 hours taught me.

First, I fill the void with internet. blooooogs and more blogs. find a good blog and kill the whole archive.

2. Thank god for pinterest so I can keep track of the cool stuff.

3. I should write more. Like actually write.

4. I feel like I probably get the same about done, there is just an extra sense of calm when there isn't a television demanding attention.

5. I cook more/better meals.

6. More time for reading and sex. both awesome.

7. It feels like I have more focus, but I'm not sure this is totally because of the Tv thing or possibly due to better time management.

I'm just in love with these two pictures. source 1 and 2  (number 2 is also an autumn playlist! enjoy, its lovely)

at this moment I am

this triangle duvet cover from Urban Outfitters

the idea of a yellow ombre pillow on top of that duvet cover

lattes. dark, bitter and frothy. +

beeswax candles. the scent, the colour, the earthyness of them. I've ordered 7 pounds of beeswax to make christmas gifts with this year. I can't wait to get started.

white, leather and gold jewellery. I need to buy some new jewellery, my outfits are boring without something to mix them up and new clothes aren't really in the budget.

grilled cheese! man we have been eating a ton of grilled cheese here. especially on pumpernickle bread. yummmmmmers.

more coffee. I'm in school, what can I say? Girls gotta stay hydrated.

this lovely iphone case. yellow, grey, wood and TRIANGLES? sold!


Sorry things have been so quiet around here. We have literally re-arranged the whole apartment in the last week. moving shelves, adding a new desk, moving the computer, and purging some of the stuff that wasn't working. its much more productive for Peter and I to work from now. I actually enjoy sitting in the living room and working on projects instead of being along in the bedroom on an uncomfortable chair. Hes been doing a fair amount of video work and with all of my homework our main computer gets a bit of a workout.

it was nice to go home for Peters thanksgiving and then up to my cottage to celebrate with my family. it was a bit of a whirlwind tour, we visited, we ATE and we moved on to the next meal haha. repeat repeat repeat. I must say, as lovely as it is to visit I'm a home body and would rather spend relaxing nights at home with P and his amazing cooking. This is sort of a secret but I don't really even like turkey that much.

I'm almost out of tea from Davids tea and was debating what flavours to get next. For sure I am getting forever nuts, pumpkin chai and banana bread...what others do you love? I'm looking for some more non-caffeinated ones since I usually drink tea at night.

Is there for real a mosquito in my room right now?

I am having a revelation about skin care and time alone tonight.

I don't make enough time for either.

And they are just so important. SO IMPORTANT!

(oh and random sidebar, a few people in the last week-ish have talked to me about my blog in real life and I'm always super awkward about it because ...I don't know...its like my personal ramblings...and my randomness.
and its not like you don't already know that I over analyze evvvvvvvvverything.

actually yes, lets talk about this....

(when the sidebar takes over your post)
(story of my life)
(one more?)

I want to put my thoughts out there. I feel like I need to. but I also just wish it could not be thrown back in my face for ANY reason.

I'm not here to hurt feelings or loose a job or damage future me's potential in any way.

But at the same time, this feels right. this feels like what I am supposed to do. what I've always done with my feelings. WHAT I DO

to other bloggers: do you struggle with this? this worry that your blog will have negative impacts to your real life?

See its so different though. there are less bloggers that share real and honest opinions and how they are really feeling and experiencing. Its just not what makes the money and I get that. totalllllly get it.
I really appreciate those that do though. thank you for letting me into your life.

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In fact, I've been toying with the idea of starting a less personal, more awesome links ...pictures ...recipes...pretty much everything this blog sometimes tries to be but fails.

I just always have to go back to the feeling stuff and its a different release. for a different market.
a different blog.

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and yep, nothing really to go back to in the first sidebar)

so here we are, back at skin care and time alone.

I'll start with skin care.

I PRESENT TO YOU THE OIL CLEANING METHOD

I'm sold. going to buy castor oil tomorrow. and new washcloths I guess.

But I really feel like this is my THING. my skin has wanted this for so long, it loooooves to be oily and doesn't like me to wash it. which is fine for like weekends at the cottage and camping haha but when I am out in the city all day and apply makeup in the morning (including powder) I just feel like I need to wash my face before bed. that washing it would still be better then not washing it.

but! cleaning it with oil? (and not just olive oil, thats wayyyy to thick for my skin) I'm sold.

(not even actually sold, this will be the cheapest skin care routine I've tried to date)

oh yeah. and time alone? lovely, just lovely.

So many things to say!

mostly though, shredded carrots.

I'm sooooo in love with them.

They are unbelievably tasty. and so cheap!

just shred them up in a food processor, add equalish amounts of olive oil, apple cider vinegar, soy sauce, then some salt and pepper and a herb. the first time I used parsley and this time I used dill and both were rad. oh and like half of small red onion. This time I was so lazy I just dumped the onion down the food processor tube and it did all the work for me in like .8 seconds. They are tangy and a little salty and sour and the soy sauce gives it depth but its light and healthy and you feel great after.


schoooooooooool.

whoa. its even weirder then I thought.

like at first I was all whatever school, its this abstract thing that I'm going to do and was mostly focused on what will happen after the fact and what I will do with the rest of my life but now I'm like a student again with other students haha. this probably makes zero sense. its just like, I can do school, I'm good enough with time management and group dynamics and deadlines but its so weird to be off in the middle of the day waiting for a 1:00 class or learning from a teacher again. I don't know how to describe it really. its just such an adjustment.

its fun right now to look at the people in my class and try and think of their story and what they did before now and how we all ended up here. They seem pretty good, I'm excited to know them more.


I've been thinking of getting a new tattoo. possibly on the top inside of my elbow or possibly on the top of my foot closer to my toes.

I don't have a final design but its definitely going to be something geometric, something symmetrical and balanced. probably with at least one triangle, most likely also a circle. My debate is colour or no colour? IF I do colour I'm thinking only two or two with a small accent of a third colour. Turquoise blue and coral and maybe some yellow. black outline.
I'm picturing what the conversation will go like when I demand to know how much red vs pink is in the coral. oh jeeze.


I feel bad about leaving the last post up for so long without posting something more positive but life was totally amazing and I just didn't even know where to start.

but then. shredded carrots! and I knew.