The heatwave humming in the house of cards

On the walls of the day
In the shade of the sun
We wrote down
Another vision of us
We were the challengers of
The unknown
"Be safe" you say
Whatever the mess you are you mine okay
That is the custom
On down


Growing up isn't about discovering yourself, in a positive way of learning about everything you were predetermined to like. Your not a person who was meant to be something, someone. Growing up is about discovering all the things that you really don't want in your life. And it usually works out for us, because no one likes being dirty, homeless, cold. (homeless? i don't know why i said that. i've never been homeless.) So you just learn all the shit you really don't want in your life and make a life for yourself as far away from that as you can. Thats the whole game everyone plays.

I've been discovering lots of stuff that I am going to change about my life. there is a hell of a lot of things I could be doing better. one of the biggest things is my apartment. Its not mine yet. but that is going to change very very soon. This weekend in fact. I'm uploading pictures right now from my camera that I am going to post to my favorite of all websites, apartment therapy. Of all the design and home dec websites out there this one takes the cake. its inspiring and, no its pretty much just inspiring. and awesome, but thats a given.






When I am older there isn't a geographical location that I desire to live in. its going to be more about the feeling i have when I am there. chances are it won't be anywhere close to where i am now though on account of tropical and lush being part of that feeling. the thing is i really do love living in a city. I love just walking around not knowing people, being part of a mass. i love the unexpectedness of a city and how it can offer you so many things all at once. you can make every day totally different in a city just by the different roads you take *even if your going to the same place every day* and the different things to try. and the best part is there are different things to try everyday. but even though i love being part of a city, i also desire a certain amount of living space. space that is alive. space that is green with soil underneath. there isn't a lot of that in the city.





I made the most amazing pasta tonight with basil, brie, fresh tomatoes and olive oil. I used half red wine vinegar and half balsamic and it was a choice I recommend. I had to eat it again after my shower it was seriously that friggen amazing.