i don't give a shit.
it doesn't give me any satisfaction to have climbed to the top of my to do list. there is always another list started on a new page. there is always something.
today i realized that i will never satisfy myself. i'm not one of those people that can accept things. some people call it drive, i think its going to make me go crazy.
so for everyone in my life. you will never be good enough. you'll probably disappoint me at some point and i will act like i was expecting it. because i was. because that makes the constant disappointment in myself seem bearable.