holyfuckohmygoodnessfuckingeh

my goal is to have 10 great pieces in my portfolio book. because thats what my teacher told me. 

so far. 

i have 0 that are finished. 

and.

only.

19 days until i have to present it to everyone i want to hire me. 

i woke up with a 'stuck on the tracks of a speeding train blaring its horn at you in the middle of nowhere with darkness surrounds you and no one to blame but yourself' heaping of worry and fret in my stomach after this dream induced realization. fack.